DiRtY bOoKs DiRtY bOyS bLoG: Infinite Desire

Title: Infinite Desire

Series: Savannah Series #4

Author: Danielle Jamie

Genre: Contemporary Romance

Age Group: Adult

Release date~ November 29 2013

Publisher~ Lavish Publishings

Over the
last several months, Savannah's life has been a never-ending roller coaster
ride. Every time Savannah sees the light at the end of the tunnel and her world
stops spinning, another obstacle is thrown in her path. Kayden had always been
her rock, the constant in her life over the most difficult months of her life.
A story leaked, making Savannah doubt everything including Kayden's love. Leaving
their fate hanging in the balance, she ran. But after learning the truth,
Savannah set out to correct her wrongs and win Kayden back. Will Kayden put the
past behind them, and focus on the future they could have together? Or will
Savannah be heartbroken and all alone again? Savannah thought their love was
infinite and indestructible. After everything they've been through, how can
they wade through the past and believe in their love? Will Savannah and Kayden
get their happily every after, or will the past jeopardize their future? Only a
special kind of love can survive the trials and tribulations life tosses in
your way. Is Kayden and Savannah's love strong enough to make it through the
strongest of storms? Only time will tell.

BOOK TRAILER

Prologue

Savannah 16 hrs earlier

Climbing into bed at my parents’ house, I slide under the covers and curl into a ball. Gripping my comforter in one hand, and my phone in the other, I stare at the screen. I just sent Kayden a text telling him I need to talk, but didn’t know if he was sleeping or not. I keep watching the time on my screen change, each second feels like an eternity.

I’m emotionally drained and feeling completely shattered. I walked away from Kayden after he begged for me to stay. Why didn’t I just stay? I had every right to be scared and think that Kayden slept with Nadia, maybe; I’ve been cheated on before and was completely clueless. All I keep telling myself since the day I left Texas is that I should’ve gone with my gut. I knew deep down Kayden loved me and only me. He’s not given me any reason to doubt his faithfulness. He took a chance on love when we jumped into this crazy beautiful relationship of ours. He gave me what he has given no other women since Lulu, his heart. I can’t even begin to image how he’s feeling right now. I stomped on his heart and made him feel that I don’t trust him.

My phone starts playing Cowboys and Angels; I changed Kayden’s ringtone the night of my birthday. Since it’s the first song Kayden ever sang to me, then he had Dustin Lynch sing it to us as we danced on my birthday; I just knew it was the perfect choice for Kayden. It’s a lot better than Genuwine’s Pony that Kayden set as his ringtone back in December when he was a tad drunk.

I can’t help but smile thinking back to the simpler times; us being carefree and enjoying bon fires on the beach. Little did I know that entire time Jacob and Zak were planning to kidnap me and hold me for ransom. Since then my life has been a nonstop roller coaster ride of ups and downs.

Taking in a deep breath, I close my eyes and slowly exhale. “Hey…” I answer my voice low and shaky. My nerves are on edge after the run in with Giselle, Logan and Nadia tonight.

“Hey baby. What’s up…everything okay?” I immediately relax hearing Kayden’s voice.

Trying to ignore the butterflies fluttering in my stomach from hearing Kayden call me baby, I decide to just jump straight to the point. “I just got in from Vertigo; you’ll never guess who Brooklyn and I ran into tonight.”

I can hear Kayden moving around in bed on the other end. It makes me miss him even more laying in this bed all alone. It feels like forever since I’ve been in his arms.

“Do I want to even know?” He asks sarcastically.

“Yea, well, Brooklyn spotted Giselle and Logan partying together in Vertigo…I guess they’re an item now. But they weren’t alone, Nadia was there too.” The words taste foul in my mouth. Talking about them makes my stomach churn. I have so much anger boiling inside of me.

I can hear Kayden cursing under his breath; I can just picture him running his strong fingers continuously through his light brown hair. I hate having to have this conversation over the phone.

“If they did anything to upset you Savannah…I swear to God.” Kayden says angrily, his drawl thick and raspy. It always gets thicker when he’s pissed off.

Letting out a sigh, I fight back the tears welling up in my eyes. We’ve mainly been texting back and forth to keep in touch since I came back to LA. Hearing his voice was just too hard, so I’ve refrained from calling him. Hearing him now, even thousands of miles away my body aches for his arms to be around me. I’m not complete without Kayden by my side. Knowing even after what I’ve put him through while trying to figure all this out, he still loves me and worries about me.

“It was a good thing we found them there, I confronted Nadia and she confessed to me that everything she said was a lie. I cannot tell you enough how sorry I am for doubting you. I was just so scared…” My voice trails off and cracks as I fight the tears threatening to break the flood gates. I take in and let out short even breaths as I try to compose myself.

“That lying bitch finally decided to tell the truth now! Well isn’t that nice of her.” The bitterness in Kayden’s voice pierces my heart. This woman put him and me through hell all because of Giselle. “I don’t know what to say Savannah, I told you…hell I begged you to believe me, I was never unfaithful to you. I’m not Logan. Do you think it’s easy for me after what Luanne put me through to trust you?”

Hearing the disappointment in Kayden‘s voice shreds me. I hate that I allow Logan‘s transgressions to affect my trust in Kayden. The mention of Luanne is like a sucker punch to my gut. It‘s hard for me to control those voices in the back of my head telling me Kayden will cheat on me just like Logan did. It never crossed my mind that he may be fighting his own battle against the evil demon’s our exes have plagued us with.

“I don’t know what to say besides I’m sorry and I love you, and if I could go back, I’d do it all differently. I just need you to understand, deep down I believed you. It’s just I had that voice in my head screaming at me to run…so I ran. I want you to understand that from here on out Kayden I’ll be by your side and never doubt you again. Being away from you this past week has been the hardest week of my life. Harder than almost dying.”

Kayden is quiet and for a moment I think I’ve lost him, but then I hear him sigh into the phone. I don’t realize it until now that I was holding my breath waiting for himto say something…anything. “You think it was hard for you?” He drawls, with anger and pain in his voice. “I’m the one who’s been ripping his hair out trying to figure out what the fuck I have to do to make you believe me. I’m just relieved she’s finally stopped this whole fuckin’ charade. We’ve got to work on us Savannah. We’re nothing without trust.”

I cannot agree more. We have off the charts chemistry when we’re together. We love each other immensely, but without trust our relationship will crumble. We can’t build a life on shaky foundation.

Feeling my fight to keep myself together slowly weakening, I decide to focus on what went down at Vertigo tonight with Nadia. I quickly scoot against my headboard, pulling my knees up to my chest and snuggling into my blanket before diving in, “When we confronted Nadia at the club tonight she sang like a canary, and Giselle was beyond pissed, but it wasn’t easy getting the truth outta her. It took Brooklyn and I threatening bodily hard to her, Giselle…and Logan, to get them to come clean. The only thing is it happened right in the middle of Vertigo. So I have no doubt that the argument will spread like wildfire all over the internet by tomorrow.”

I can hear Kayden taking in long sharp breaths, probably trying to refrain himself from jumping on his jet, and coming to LA to beat the living crap out of Logan. “Did she say why she lied? Was it just to get attention? All these people care about is getting their face on a fuckin’ magazine.”

The tears freely fall from my eyes now, I’ve lost the battle with my emotions, and I’ve been through a whirlwind of shit tonight and just can’t fight it anymore. A sob escapes my lips as I try to speak.

“It…was…Giselle.” Climbing to the edge of the bed I grab a tissue off of my night stand, wipe the tears from my face. “There’s something you need to know, Giselle and Nadia paid your assistant for information on when you’d be in Paris, then waited at the Hotel bar for you to show up so they could get pictures with you. Giselle preyed on the fact that I have issues with trust, and I have no doubt in my mind now that I know she’s with Logan.”

“That fuckin’ bitch! She can’t have me, so will do anything to destroy what we have. She will not get away with this. She fucked with the wrong man. And Logan best pray I never see him again, because if I do this time nothing will stop me from beating the living the shit out of him! My assistant will be lucky if she can get a job at McDonalds by the time I’m through with her.”

Hearing the anger in Kayden’s voice, I have no doubts he would probably beat Logan to death for this. They’ve gone too far, and I for one cannot wait to see them pay for what they’ve done. “Well Giselle and Logan will be all over the news by Monday morning, Nadia agreed to come clean to the press. She’s going to tell them the real story, of how Giselle and Logan manipulated and used her for their gain, paying her off to sell the false story of you two having a one night stand in Paris.”

“I can’t believe this. These fuckin’ people don’t give a shit who they hurt, as long as they get whatever the fuck they want. I will be giving my own fuckin’ story to the press too come Monday. By the time I’m through with them, they will have no career left.”

I cannot wait to get Monday over with. Finally have the truth out there, let the world see that Kayden and I are happily together. Giselle is truly a pathetic person. She’s so bitter that Kayden wanted to keep their relationship strictly platonic, and wanted to be with me and not her, that she’d stoop so low to try and destroy us. I’m ready to go home, back to my new home with Kayden in Galveston. Start fresh.

Gazing out the window I watch the stars twinkle in sky above my parents Bel Air mansion. This house is gorgeous, but being here in my room alone is very lonely. I’ve grown accustom to curling up in Kayden’s strong and protective arms every night.

“I’m going to book a flight back to Houston tomorrow first thing.” I tell Kayden matter-of-factly.

“I’m so happy to finally hear those words come out of your mouth, baby. It has been a long fuckin’ week. I’m never letting you go again, even if I have to tie your stubborn ass up and lock you in a closet.”

I let out a small laugh as I think back to Kayden fucking me into oblivion with the best ass fuck’ of my entire life, in my closet.

“What?! You don’t believe me…laugh my sweet Savannah, but baby, I ain’tlyin’.” Kayden’s husky laugh is like music to my ears. After a week of absolute misery, I finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.

“I believe you, I was just laughing because I was recalling a particular time when you were ravishing me against the wall in a certain closet. We definitely gotta do that in your beach house, that closet needs christening.”

“Well darlin’ sorry to burst your bubble, but we’ll have to christen the closet Wednesday. I just flew into Las Vegas today with the boys. We’re doing a guy’s weekend before Braxton settles down and starts poppin’ out babies with Mya.”

“Okay. I hate I have to wait until Wednesday, but you’re worth the wait. Just as soon as you step through that door, I expect to see you naked in that closet wearin’ nothing but that cowboy hat I love.” I blush at my brazenness, but since I’ve been with Kayden I’ve been a lot more vocal about my wants and desires.

“Fuck baby. Don’t talk like that when I have to wait four more days to see you. I’m gonna have to go rub one out in the shower. I can’t get the image out of my head of you very satisfied on the closet floor.”

Fuck it. I need to be with him as soon as physically possible. First thing tomorrow I’m crashin’ his guy’s weekend and flying to Vegas.

A yawn escapes my mouth, even though I want nothing more than to stay awake all night on the phone with Kayden. My body betrays me, screaming at me to sleep. My eye lids are heavy, between crying and being completely spent, I can’t fight sleep any longer.

“Goodnight baby. You’re tired and it’s late. Call or text me tomorrow letting me know when you’re flying back to Texas. Love ya, baby. Everything will be better once we’re back home together.” Kayden drawls into the phone, his voice like a lullaby soothing me.

“Night, Knox. I love you too, more than the moon and all the stars in Texas.” Hanging up, I flick away the last tear from my eyes. I’ve cried too many tears over the last several months. Patting my eyes with my blanket, I roll over, curl into a ball, falling asleep the second I shut my eyes.

Amazon Bestselling Author and a mother of 3 wonderful kids. Madison 9 Bailey 5 and Finn 2. I run a successful online boutique, Bailey Booper’s Boutique; many of my items featured on Teen Mom 2. I live in a small town in NY with my husband of 10 years, enjoying my happily ever after. My perfect day is spending time at the beach, I love the Ocean. I’m an outdoorsy type of girl; every chance I get I’m outside walking or running around with my kids.

I have been writing for as long as I can remember but I finally decide to peruse my dreams of sharing my stories with the world when I published my first Novel Irresistible Desire back in March 2013.