Sebastian pushed me back against Jonathon’s car with desperation in his eyes. His left hand grabbed my hip and he thrust himself forward so every part of our bodies touched. I inhaled slowly trying to take him all in.
He wasn’t leaving town.
He wasn’t leaving without a fight.
On the outside I showed no emotion, but inside I felt relief spreading throughout my body. I didn’t want to admit it but I needed him. His touch made me feel alive again. I had missed that these past weeks. I wasn’t sure if these feeling were going to break me but I was going to grab hold of it. Even if just for a moment. Even if I knew it couldn’t last.
His other hand wrapped around the back of my neck as he pulled my forehead to his. I could smell the remnants of his mint gum and feel his breath on my skin. His mouthed moved closer to mine.
“Kiss me,” he whispered onto my lips.
I wanted to but I couldn’t. I didn’t want to give him the wrong impression again. I didn’t want him to think he had a chance.
“No.” I said firmly.
His lips moved closer to mine and lightly brushed against me. “Kiss me, Mia. Let me show you how good it feels. Let me help you forget the pain and just be in this moment, with me.”
His mouth lightly touched mine in a quick tender kiss. My lips burned from his touch and it took everything I had to not make a sound, to look indifferent. I was giving in. Caving. Another few seconds and I would be his for sure.
His lips left mine but still hovered over my mouth. “God I’ve missed you. I’ve missed this, us, just being together. Kiss me, please.”
I looked up into his eyes and saw the desperation there. He looked tired. He looked like he hadn’t slept in weeks. His gorgeous blue eyes had dullness to them that I hadn’t noticed yesterday. I wanted to comfort him. I needed to make sure he was okay. It made no sense but I knew I couldn’t be okay if he wasn’t.
Ignoring the inner battle going on between my head and my heart, I leaned forward and connected my lips with his. His response was immediate. His hands gripped me tighter as his tongue slipped into my mouth.